The Parable of the Merchant and his Bird

In India, there was a wealthy merchant. After taking over the business from his father while he was still in his early twenties, the business began to flourish. As the man got older, he realized that a wife would only try to take the empire that his family had worked so hard to build and on his 33rd birthday, he took a vow of celibacy.

After many years of trading all over the world, the Merchant began to get very lonely. Every person that he interacted with either feared his wealth and status, or wanted to use his wealth and status for some sort of personal agenda. The Merchant desperately wanted to be treated as an equal; to have a conversation with a peer.

While trading with some African Natives, the Merchant began talking to a very old and very wise African Shaman. The Shaman took the Merchant back to his village where he treated the merchant to a feast and wine. For many hours the Merchant drank and ate.

At the end of the night, the shaman brought the merchant in real close and said, “I have a solution for your terrible loneliness. Take my pet bird. I have granted it the power to speak.” Amazed, the merchant did as he was told.

Over the course of the next few months the merchant and his bird became the very best of friends. They would stay up all hours of the night talking, the merchant would get the birds advice on various business dealings, and the merchant was finally fulfilled.

Before his next trip to Africa, the merchant asked the bird, “Is there anything you would like me to tell your friends and family?”

“Why, yes,” the bird replied. “Please tell them that I’ve never been happier in my cage.”

The merchant repeated the message to the birds in Africa, and one bird suddenly went stiff as a board, eyes wide and filled with tears. Then suddenly the bird fell from tree to ground, apparently lifeless. Feeling horrible, the merchant returned to his dear friend and relayed his experience. All of the sudden the bird went stiff and wide-eyed, just like his counterpart. The bird fell to the bottom of his cage, seemingly dead.

With tears in his eyes, the merchant picked up his deceased friend and took him outside. The second his set the bird on the ground, the bird suddenly sprung to life and flew up into a tree, out of the reach of the merchant.

“Oh!” the merchant yelled in shock. “What is the meaning of all of this?” he shouted at the frustrating realization that he had just been played.

“Listen close,” the bird said. “In order to be free from your cage, you must learn to die during your life.”


The Life of a Loner



All of my life i have felt like I was outside looking in; no matter what the situation. I have always been into loyalty and serving something bigger than oneself, but I have never had anything to put my all into. I have always been a loner. Not by choice. But for some reason I have always felt like an outsider looking in. There was always some reason why I wasn’t “one of the boys”. I have so much in me to give to something, but I still have yet to find my group.

My whole life I have been a leader. Im not sure if my intelligence is what makes it that way, but when you are the smartest person in the room, most people look to you to answer the questions. I wanted to join the military, before i knew what t was about. I wanted to be a cop, until I found out what it was about. Hell, I even wanted to be a gangbanger at one time in my life. For a long time I thought my place was in Hiphop, but now I dont even know if that is true. As good of a rapper as I was, I still dont know if that was the way I was meant to express myself. I know that I am supposed to be a teacher and a mentor, but how can I do that if I cant even find my mentor or teacher.

I have a soldier in me. I always have. I have so much passion in me, and the last thing in the world I want to do is express it in a violent way, but I know that it is in there. And wouldn’t the right thing to do be to apply it to something that I believe in? I have the soul of a revolutionary, especially when I look around and see the way the world works. I dont know.

Something that just occurred to me; maybe my purpose is to find a way to honestly express my purpose. I’m starting to think that the way I do it is irrelevant. Bruce Lee talks about the difficulty of expressing oneself honestly, and that really resonated with me. I think that is what has kept me out of the “groups” and “cliques” that I wanted to participate in, the fact that involving myself in those things wouldn’t have been me expressing myself honestly. I dont have negative feelings, or regrets; just understanding. Thanks to these experiences.

This is a song I made with my previous “Rap Identity”

Fortunately, this side of me has been balanced. So I’m still looking for my place in Hiphop.

The Law of One

The Law of One is a series of five books channeled by L/L Research from 1981-1984. I was introduced to these books by David Wilcock, who is a researcher and author that is attempting to quarterback the UFO disclosure movement. I dont believe a majority of the things he says and writes about, but he is fairly well-known amongst the “UFO” and “truth” movement, so whistle-blowers use him to get out classified information. The Law of One details the information from a being that calls itself, “Ra; a humble messenger of the Law of One”.

“Consider, if you will, that the universe is infinite. This has yet to be proven or disproven, but we can assure you that there is no end to your selves, your understanding, what you would call your journey of seeking, or your perceptions of the creation. That which is infinite cannot be many, for many-ness is a finite concept. To have infinity you must identify or define that infinity as unity; otherwise, the term does not have any referent or meaning. In an Infinite Creator there is only unity. You have seen simple examples of unity. You have seen the prism which shows all colors stemming from the sunlight. This is a simplistic example of unity. In truth there is no right or wrong. There is no polarity for all will be, as you would say, reconciled at some point in your dance through the mind/body/spirit complex which you amuse yourself by distorting in various ways at this time. This distortion is not in any case necessary. It is chosen by each of you as an alternative to understanding the complete unity of thought which binds all things. You are not speaking of similar or somewhat like entities or things. You are every thing, every being, every emotion, every event, every situation. You are unity. You are infinity. You are love/light, light/love. You are. This is the Law of One.”

The Law of One, Book 1, Session 1

The books contain 106 sessions of some of the most difficult and mesmerizing information that I have ever come across. It without a doubt changed my life more than any book I have ever come across. I have had to read each of the books over and over again just to begin to grasp the point; and still every time I read it, I find even more information that I had missed or misunderstood the last time around.


Native Americans and Their Energetic Connection to the Land

I am currently watching “Great American Indian Leaders and Nations” and it got me thinking about myself and the way I feel. I was born and raised in Denver, Colorado, and I have lived here almost my entire life. When I was 16 I moved to Idaho and lived there for a couple years, but the whole time I was there I was incredibly homesick. I genuinely felt a hole inside. Since moving back, I have realized the connection I have to this place. It is the only place that I have ever felt at home. As strange as it might sound; even being homeless was better out here.

But I was just curious if anyone else has had a similar feeling, or any thoughts on the matter.

Cutting Through The Matrix: Breakdown, Explanation, & Opinions


Cutting Through The Matrix is a podcast/radio program hosted by the esteemed English researcher Alan Watt. Watt also authored (and I assume self-published) a book by the same name. This collection of three volumes is one of the most indispensable works on “conspiracies”. I’ve had to force myself to read it all the way through many times, and every single time I do I find things that I misunderstood or missed entirely.

“The art of illusion is complete comprehension of how the human mind digests incoming information via the 5 senses and, by deliberate interference, bring the subject to the desired conclusion. When the subject thinks he has come to “his” conclusion, then all repetition of similar incoming information is automatically put into storage, by passing all scrutiny.”- Page 5 Cutting Through The Matrix

In many New Age and Occult circles, there is talk of the ending of an Age, and the beginning of the Age of Aquarius. Another name for Age is the “Platonic” year, which is 2,160 years. Plato was an initiate into this ancient priesthood that has controlled to consciousness of humanity for as long as history has been recorded. This priesthood has been known to some as the “Sons of Cain”. This is a reference to Cain and Abel, from the book of genesis. Cain means “builder, shaper, constructor”; thus they are the builders and shapers of our society. This is the common thread of any and all groups that purposefully propagate and elitist attitude.

The priesthood of every single religion have this kabalistic foundation; or in other words, the written dogma is the “exoteric” doctrine, for the sheeple. Then the “esoteric” doctrine is kept hidden and handed down orally. Basically what they did, and still do today, is take the exoteric symbolism of the masses and give it new meaning after new meaning. That’s why when someone describes alchemical symbolism, they have to specify layer after layer esoteric mumbo-jumbo.

This esoteric, or Kabbalistic, mind pattern incessantly cultivates an elitist point of view, putting this priest class way up on a pedestal, and the masses aren’t even aware of it. In Greece, Pythagoras taught the Greeks to control the mind with a mathematical equation. This was presented in story form, given to the reader in the form of a dialogue. He then broke every societal problem down into a binary problem; “either-or”. Then he would lead the reader to a predetermined conclusion that the reader would mistakenly believe that he not only agreed with it, but that he came to conclusion by his own volition.